text | un: roman

[twofates]

What does it mean to love someone? How are you supposed to feel?

[ Hi, everyone. Have an awkward, developmentally-stunted dude who asks weird questions with no preamble. It's a heavy topic most people would probably prefer to discuss with close friends and family, not someone they've never met, but Roman doesn't think like that. It doesn't occur to him that some topics may not be appropriate to post on a network like this with relative strangers.

It doesn't occur to him that some people probably can't relate, or wouldn't care about this kind of inner turmoil. There are plenty of other things to worry about here, too, but these thoughts take precedence to him. Surviving in a strange new world is, to him, almost preferable to the struggles within, those of the heart and soul. ]

Some people don't deserve it, do they?

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text; un: elena

[otrazhenie]

Everyone deserves to be loved, and to know what it is to love someone else. It's the most amazing feeling in the world, and it can also be the most painful.

[twofates]

Everyone? How can that be true?

text | c.fraser

[nineteenfortyfive]

There are a lot of different types of love. The love between friends, comrades, the love between parent and child, brother and sister, and romantic love. They all feel a bit different.

[twofates]

When you love them - anyone - what do you feel inside?

[ He knows it must be a good feeling, it's why so many people seem to want it, but he can't imagine what it must feel like because he's not sure he's ever felt it. ]

text | un: BishopRunout

[poolhall_killer]

I wish I had a more concrete answer for you, but my experience back home had me feeling rather empty.

[He's been a touch mopey ever since his night with Peter (definitely not Peter's fault because he was amazing), so he's a bit odd at the moment.]

There are times I feel that others deserve it more than me.

[twofates]

Why did you feel empty?

[ Yes, he won't hold back on asking what's probably a very personal question. ]

text: jjones

[underachievement]

[ What luck, she is just drunk enough for this. ]

Why? You making a list?

[twofates]

[ He takes this as a serious question. ]

Do you think I should?

text | un: ashari

[zephrah]

it means their life means more to you than your own slightly nauseous and terrified are you asking if some people don't deserve to be loved or if some people don't deserve to be in love

[ Sorry for her run-on sentences, texting is really hard for her. ]

[twofates]

[ It takes a minute to interpret this, but he manages it. ]

That's not familiar to me. I don't think I've ever felt that way.

[ More to the point, he doesn't know if he can. ]

I'm asking both.

text; un: real_life_actual_king

[tummyflowers]

Honestly I'm not sure, my friend. It's not nearly as easy as people make it out to be.

[twofates]

[ While in a strange way, he appreciates the response because this person can perhaps understand Roman's own uncertainty, he hones in on something else entirely. ]

Why did you call me your friend?

[ It's hard to interpret through text, but the question is one of gentle curiosity, not as accusatory as it might seem without tonal inflection. ]

un: THE_HAMMER

[ruffboi]

Love isn't something you deserve. It's something someone gives to you, or something you can give to them, no matter who you are.

But loving someone means wanting to deserve it.

[twofates]

A good person could love a terrible person and it wouldn't matter?

If you don't think you deserve it and you want to change, is that even possible?

UN: SizzleItUp@LinkedIn

[chaoticlootral]

What is this, your Xanga? 😂

[ruffboi]

Taako that's so mean!!!!!!

Can you show me how to do the little pictures? I want to give you a thumbs down!

text: un: CherylBombshell

[sweetwater]

Now that sounds like there's an interesting piece of gossip behind it. You can't tease that without spilling the details.

[twofates]

If you knew all the details, you'd wish you hadn't asked. Trust me.

text, un: morrigan

[courtintrigue]

Ah, so this is now a forum for romantic philosophy. Wonderful.

Do you ask because you wish to make a study of us all?

[twofates]

No. I'm sorry. I'm asking because it's not something I've ever understood or known.

[ For a few weeks, once, he thinks he had a glimpse of what it maybe felt like for anyone to genuinely care about him. But it wasn't long enough to understand love or basic human connections, and it turned out he was betrayed by that person (his sister) anyway. ]

text — un: direwolf

[northborn]

There are many languages, where I come from. Countless ones. None of them come close to naming it.

Do you worry you are undeserving, ser?

[twofates]

I guess the question was harder to answer than I realized. [ He has so little experience of love, he oddly thought it would be a black and white answer. ]

Yes. I do. Do you know what that feels like?

text; un: Mercy

[valcurie]

What kind of love do you mean?

[twofates]

Any kind. I guess the closest thing I ever felt to love was with my sister. But she betrayed me. I don't know what's real.

un: pgoldstein

[goldsteins]

I don't think you're going to find the answer you're looking for in a message like this.

[twofates]

You don't think people will be honest?

text, un: Yousoro★

[ayes]

uhhh I dont know
I mean I guess Im pretty young so it hasnt come up really yet
Id like to think it makes you feel full and warm like youre watching the sunrise, but all the time

why would someone not deserve love! like everyone can find someone for them, right?

[twofates]

I'm sure that's a nice feeling.

[ Though he wouldn't know, of course. ]

If someone is a monster, they still deserve love?

text | un: EUSFORD

[eusford]

Some advice: you're better off disconnecting from fleeting feelings like love. Humans tend to flipflop around too much with the subject anyway, pick up a history book and you'll see that's nothing special.

But what did you do to suddenly be undeserving of it? Kill a man? :)

[twofates]

[ He's actually more than open to believing that. He'd started letting himself trust his sister, letting his guard down, but she'd betrayed him. What good does love get you? ]

That does sound easier.

And I have a complicated past.

[ Which includes, yes, killing people. Many people. ]

( text ) FROM: °˖✧♔KING JJ♔✧˖°

[underwhelms]

roman!! hey!
it's kind of mean to say people don't deserve love
are you ok?

[twofates]

hey. i'm fine. just thinking too much i guess. you really believe that about everyone deserving love?

text; un: theEND

[winddaughter]

it's surprising

sometimes you don't realize it's there

sometimes it's too late

[twofates]

Is it a really good feeling, when it happens?

text; un: mai

[maipokerface]

[Oh Agni. This is still a difficult topic for her. ... Why is she replying then?]

I'm pretty sure there's no one specific way to feel when you're in love.

[twofates]

How do you know it's love then?

text! un: romanée-conti

[vacuum]

There are many different kinds of love. If you don't even know how it feels, I really wonder about your upbringing.

[ either this guy's trying to write some poetry, or he's just really weird. ]

Why does it matter whether it's deserved or not?

[twofates]

[ Not that anyone actually cares about his upbringing but him, he assumes, but since he was raised in an orphanage by caretakers who psychologically abused him, love was a foreign concept. ]

If no one ever loved you, how would you know what it feels like? And I guess I wanted to know what people think because most people have had more experience than me.