text | un: roman

[twofates]

What does it mean to love someone? How are you supposed to feel?

[ Hi, everyone. Have an awkward, developmentally-stunted dude who asks weird questions with no preamble. It's a heavy topic most people would probably prefer to discuss with close friends and family, not someone they've never met, but Roman doesn't think like that. It doesn't occur to him that some topics may not be appropriate to post on a network like this with relative strangers.

It doesn't occur to him that some people probably can't relate, or wouldn't care about this kind of inner turmoil. There are plenty of other things to worry about here, too, but these thoughts take precedence to him. Surviving in a strange new world is, to him, almost preferable to the struggles within, those of the heart and soul. ]

Some people don't deserve it, do they?

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text | un: EUSFORD

[eusford]

Some advice: you're better off disconnecting from fleeting feelings like love. Humans tend to flipflop around too much with the subject anyway, pick up a history book and you'll see that's nothing special.

But what did you do to suddenly be undeserving of it? Kill a man? :)

[twofates]

[ He's actually more than open to believing that. He'd started letting himself trust his sister, letting his guard down, but she'd betrayed him. What good does love get you? ]

That does sound easier.

And I have a complicated past.

[ Which includes, yes, killing people. Many people. ]

[eusford]

It gets even better over time.

[ But should he probably explain that it was only easy for him since those emotions were forced out of him? Nah. ]

So yes. And by human logic if all your killing is unjust then yeah, you're pretty much undeserving of anything "good". Which includes love.

[twofates]

More reason to ignore it, I guess. Love.

[eusford]

It's best to.
There's no real advantages that come with it, after all.