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VIDEO | UN: Trafalgar
[The video feed that opens up on Law has a bit of a jarring background of metal and glowing screens, a sight many will recognize as the stasis pods aboard Thesa Station. He's taken an excursion in the midst of everyone's weird forest adventure. He's sitting now on the floor of the chamber, back up against one of the control panels to the pods. It's an especially odd place to be, because if you squint you'll notice that there's a chair within view of where he's sat, yet he's still chosen to remain on the cold metal floor.
He doesn't actually speak right away, simply staring blankly at the feed as if he'd turned it on as an afterthought. When he does speak, it's with a heavy bitterness as if he's been wronged in some way. As far as he's concerned, he has been, but he's certainly not going to speak openly about that.]
Do you ever think maybe we're all dead and this is actually hell? I've been thinking about it and I think it explains a lot about our situation.
[Anyone who's met Law before knows that his resting state is looking vaguely tired. Today is different. This isn't even the sleep deprived tiredness he'd had when he was working overtime tending to the injured months ago in the aftermath of the dragon. No, this is something different, an emotional exhaustion, manifesting as a redness around the eyes rather than just his usual dark circles.
He doesn't actually speak right away, simply staring blankly at the feed as if he'd turned it on as an afterthought. When he does speak, it's with a heavy bitterness as if he's been wronged in some way. As far as he's concerned, he has been, but he's certainly not going to speak openly about that.]
Do you ever think maybe we're all dead and this is actually hell? I've been thinking about it and I think it explains a lot about our situation.
[Anyone who's met Law before knows that his resting state is looking vaguely tired. Today is different. This isn't even the sleep deprived tiredness he'd had when he was working overtime tending to the injured months ago in the aftermath of the dragon. No, this is something different, an emotional exhaustion, manifesting as a redness around the eyes rather than just his usual dark circles.
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No friends here, huh.
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[Law stops, turns a faint shade of red, and looks out the nearest window, suddenly considering the freeing embrace of the cold vaccuum of space.
He then just elects to take a particularly hearty swig from his beaker full of alcohol. Everything about this gesture just paints a real picture of a disaster of a human being. Finally, he's had enough buffer time to formulate a proper response.]
I'm not in the mood to have my own words used against me right now.
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[Kagari's expression doesn't grow any less smug, though. If anything, that blush only makes it worse. He lets a moment pass, then:]
So the sex is that good, ah? Congrats, Law-kun~
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That's not- Don't go jumping to conclusions like that on your own.
[He wipes his face on his sleeve, shame it can't remove the very palpable embarassment. He just looks even more tired as it hits him how chaotic and frankly disastrous the truth of their current relationship status is. Definitely not going to share that.]
You shouldn't forget than I can and will rearrange your organs, Kagari-ya.
[When in doubt, throw out a threat.]
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Oooh, so scary. Hey hey, if you do, you should make them look like emoji. That'd be a hilarious way to die.
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[He has no idea what an emoji is but he's sure that even if he did, his answer would still be no. As he settles back into looking incredibly tired and annoyed rather than flustered, he finishes off the liquor in his beaker. He pauses for a moment, before moving to take the bottle and refill his glass. He's silent as he does this, and it isn't until after he takes another sip that he speaks again.]
I feel like I should be happy about this. Having another chance. But all I can think about is how it could all go wrong again. There's something wrong with me, right?
[Hopefully this is what Kagari signed up for.]
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I dunno, man. I'm the last guy who can talk about how people should be.
[He huffs a small laugh, not unkindly. There's just an irony to this moment that he'd literally just dodged explaining, and though he's not about to do it now, it's still funny.]
But for whatever it's worth, the way I see it--so what, right? I mean, maybe there is something wrong with you. Not like you can change it, so...who gives a shit? It's how you feel, and anyone who's got a problem with that can suck it.
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I guess I can suck it, then.
[Dryly. But sincerely. He's got a problem with the weird way his brain is responding to this turn of events. He also regrets being dramatic all over the network since it resulted in a bunch of people arguing with his attempt at nihilism.]
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[He can’t help but chuckle a little, because Law had been so adamant that he didn’t want anyone to tell him to be happy—and yet, he’s frustrated with himself for not being happy. But ironically, he’s pretty sure he understands better now.]
...I get it though, I think. There’s nothing in the world that hurts as much as wanting something you can’t have. I don’t know how those optimist types do it all the time.
[How they do all that hoping without being crushed under its weight. How they can stand the fear of disappointment. Even after a year, Kagari still tends to treat every day like it could be his last. It’s hard for him to think of himself as having anything like a future, when it was so far beyond his reach before. Wanting things is a struggle of personhood he still has no idea how to manage.]
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You're telling me. Though, with your personality, I'd think people might mistake you for one of them.
[He's always so upbeat, after all.]
Optimists who've never had anything bad happen to them are one thing, but the ones who stay positive through all the bullshit life throws at them... Those people are the one's I can't understand.
[They're intimidating, admirable, really. But He can't phrase things positively right now.]
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Wow, gotta say that’s a new one for me.
[An optimist. Amazing.]
It’s freaky, though, isn’t it? The ones that just fuckin’ love people, even though they know? I’ll never get it. There was this one old guy, every time i was a dick to him he’d just like, get nicer. It drove me crazy.
[Yet despite his words, he definitely sounds fond. He misses that old dumbass, damn.]
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Aah. Corazon was like that. My “dead guy” as you so elegantly put it. I tried to kill him once and he still gave his life to save mine.
[Another sip from his drink. His tone is low and solemn, measured as if he’s making a effort to remain impassive.]
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Oh. That sucks.
[Shuusei Kagari: a wordsmith, a great poet of our era.]
...Is that what you're worried about? That he's gonna get hurt protecting you again if he wakes up?
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[Said with a firm resolution that's uncharacteristic of Law in times like this but perfectly normal for when he's not talking about emotional subjects.]
... I'm not a little kid anymore. I don't need to be protected and I wouldn't let him even if he tried.
[There's a tired sort of grimness in his expression. He's sooner die himself than let that happen again, was already ready to die for Corazon's memory back home. But he's not going to burden Kagari with that. Instead he just has some more of his drink.]
It's a lot of other things. For one I don't know if he'd approve of what I've done with the life he gave me.
[After all. he was a Marine and Law'd gone and become a notorious pirate. What would his parents think, for that matter? He's thought about this plenty before, but it's never seemed so harrowingly pressing before, because they were dead and gone and couldn't express their disapproval.]