[video] un: linneus.

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Hello every… ah, anyone who might see this. My name is Linneus. I... am not sure if this is working.

[leaving comments on other people’s posts is one thing, but putting his own out is quite another, and there’s a certain degree of nervousness that hasn’t been present in his everyday interactions, accentuated by the fact that he is clearly chilled and just about holding off a shiver]

I was hoping perhaps someone might be able to help. Someone in Olympia, that is. You see I returned from Wyver just now and-- well, look.

[the shift in camera angle is clumsy, but eventually he steadies the device on his surroundings. A broken-in window, the snow blown inside in small drifts. As he pans it’s clear that what little home he had started to make for himself has been quite overturned, covers tossed back and pulled off beds, cupboards and shelves standing empty, but he doesn’t linger too long on those. His main focus is on the window, one hand reaching into frame to gesture as he draws closer]

I can manage much of the housework and the cleaning, but it’s this is the trouble - it’s sort of a sash window, but it draws to the side instead of up. [a careful tug - broken glass notwithstanding, it’s clearly stuck open] I’m not sure I can manage to take it off its track by itself - I think the glass will break further if I try. But I hoped someone might try and help me with finding a replacement and perhaps fitting it?

[turning the camera back on himself, a slightly shy smile.]

I should forewarn that I may not be capable of instant repayment, but I would consider myself in your debt and endeavour to do what I can. I… await any reply, even if you’ve only advice to offer, but I shan’t be instantaneous in my replies, you understand. I have no small amount of cleaning up of my own to do…

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Text wall, I'm sorry ;A;

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I have thought of this, yes.

[but... how to put it.]

But I wanted to make a home for myself, here. I was ready to make this one mine, and it was mine, and it will be again, even if it doesn't entirely feel like it at the moment. And it sounds awful, but I didn't want... I didn't really want to involve other people in that. A relationship built of individuals living together is different... to what I might build with you, say, in that it would come to form part of the home's... identity, so to speak. So that means it is difficult for me to involve other people in my sense of "home".

[an uncertain glance to the camera, shy-]

I know that perhaps this sounds selfish. But I have never owned anything that couldn't or wouldn't be taken away. And I have never had the right to call any place my home, either, no matter how I felt.

[...does this sound stupid? Is he explaining this badly?]

omg don't worry about it <3

[competing]

[ he's quiet as linneus speaks, and by the end of it there is a small, knowing smile on his lips. ]

Yeah, I think I get it. [ he thinks of keith, and his dumb radio, and that wooden plank marking all their days here. ]

In that case, I hope you get to rebuild your home soon. We all deserve the chance to call something [ or someone ] that, you know?

<3

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[another of those furtive smiles, sitting back slightly]

It's silly, but sometimes it's hard to remember that.

[because he's heard for so long, that he doesn't deserve.]

...and you find Wyver your home, for the time being?

[competing]

Well, hey — if you ever need the reminder, you know where to find me.

[ have a wink and fingergun, linn!! ]

...Which is, yeah, in Wyver. Heh. [ he shrugs, glancing around. ] My boyfriend's more comfortable here, and it isn't so bad. I've definitely been through worse humidity.

[inaurare]

[returning the gesture - or mimicking it. What does it mean? He may never know...]

I will remember.

[his smile warms a little bit at the mention of a boyfriend. Good. It is good the boy has someone.]

And you are comfortable as well, yes? It's a decision that suits the both of you?

[competing]

[ lance's smile is small, but genuine. it's a little shy, too, though not nearly as pronounced as his usual sunny smiles. ]

Yeah, I'd be happy wherever so long as we were together. [ are there things he misses about olympia? sure, definitely. but he's got his own baggage about the place, and he's always been a very adjustable person. ]

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This is the most important thing, I think. To be happy and comfortable.

[this, spoken with his house a wreck around him, but there's no hint of jealousy in his words. Of course, it is a little disappointing not to have the boy's company nearer. But he's with someone he loves in a place he is comfortable - Linneus can't begrudge him that. He wouldn't.]