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Shuusei Kagari ([personal profile] hedonistic) wrote in [community profile] elnysa 2018-08-04 11:21 am (UTC)

weh!!! i love these sad nerds

[Kagari's skin crawls at the implications of what Linneus is saying. Much as he thinks of himself as a hardass who doesn't give a shit, he's always held a vulnerability toward kids because of what he's been through. Thinking about other kids suffering like he did always makes him feel vaguely ill; there's a reason why he can't stand to hear kids cry, even now.

There's no response on his end for a long while, too, while he actually thinks about what to say and how to say it, for once. When it comes, this one seems less like a kneejerk. It's probably the most honest Kagari's been with him, up to now.]


i never had anyone, as a kid
its a long story but my parents gave me up when i was little too
the government had this tech to figure out who all wasnt fit to be part of society and i spent my childhood locked up for the benefit of all the "wholesome" citizens on the outside
the only friends ive ever had i didnt make until i was about twenty
i died for them, you know?
id do it again
but i wouldnt do it for most people

you, though
you said you werent strong enough to help me down from that roof but you tried to anyway
you let me into your house before you even knew my name
you gave me stuff you bought for yourself because i happened to need it at that moment
youd probably even risk your life for me, even though i wouldnt for you
youre probably like this with everyone, and it pisses me off

when i met you i thought you were at least like my friend with her perfect happy life who never really knew how garbage people really are
but i was wrong, and that pisses me off even more
youre just gonna let the whole goddamn world drain you dry and you wont even care
its fucked up
its fucked up and i hate it

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