I said I have never felt the light of his love. I didn't say he didn't love me. There is a difference, Ermes.

Indeed, most would want some immediate or even eventual reward for belief. But that is not belief or faith. While I have not felt it, it doesn't stop me from believing I am here for a reason, that there is meaning to my life. Even now, when I could have slept for all eternity, I was awakened instead. Can you not call that a miracle?

Yet in this miracle, I feel no light for me. But perhaps, you now can.